Inside my head for a while
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
I like to feel comfortable but at the same time I like to be challenged.
It is very strange I admit but I have moods where I just like to be with people who are predictable and stable and I know exactly what to say to them. They will never say anything that would surprise me as they retain neutral ground and hardly ever say any thing controversial.
I can say as many controversial stuff as I like and they would still retain neutral ground or I could just go along with the flow of their conversation and than it is simple.
But I will also be bored at times as I like to talk to people that show me a new way of looking at things and make me feel like I am expanding my universe. My craving for this must come from my long nightly conversations with my father when he was still alive. After he died I have never gotten this back.
I have just discovered this as I type that my key consideration for a future partner would be that he must be able to expose certain things about life to me which I have not seen before, he must be able to challenge me... Most men my age cannot seem to do this. I have a feeling I may marry an older man by maybe 3 - 5 years or so. Perhaps I am thinking too far ahead.
I digress anyway I have another group of friends that crave controversy and complex concepts.
Thus I orbit between the two. To get my fix of controversy and stability.
A comet hit today and threw me off.
This comet is someone who just shatters my universe which was relatively quite tranquil.
And jumbled everything up and makes it look all wrong.
Firstly I do not like people who criticize the way you live when they are no better. I do not like being interrogated and asked repeatedly the same thing after closing off the topic in a rather straight forward manner.
Like the comet commented my distance from place of work and home was rather far. Than asked me if I found it far. Than I said that I have no problems with the distance from my house to the work place.
Topic closed.
Comet forces it open: Everyone complains their work place is far. You have to take a bus to your work place and walk right? How long does it take?
Me: It takes 15 mins to walk from the MRT and I do not need to take a bus.
Comet: Are you sure it is 15 mins? It is further than that.
*proceeds to calculate the time from my house to the MRT*
Comet (triumphantly): It takes 30 mins correct. So it is far.
Me: Yes it is 30 mins but you may think it is far but it is not far to me.
Comet: You take the MRT than you walk there. What route do you take to walk there?
Me: Why you so interested to know how to go to my workplace. You want to visit me at my workplace is it?
Comet: No I don't want to visit your work place.
Me: Than why do you ask me how far is my work place from my house and how to walk there?
Comet: I know how to go to your workplace. Just that your workplace distance is far.
-_-"
You know how to go to my school than must ask me so many questions for what?
She is like insisting I agree that my work place is far based on her judgment of distance. She does not even work where I am working and she does not even stay when I am staying.
There was also another matter which irritated me as well.
Comet: I find teachers are not doing what the textbooks say they should.
Me: Sometimes we should not follow just what textbooks say but think outside the box instead of being so rigid. We have to be flexible.
Comet: We should follow textbooks. Teachers are right to follow textbooks.
Me: But you just said that you found that teachers are not doing what the textbooks say they should?
Comet: Yes but we should not be complacent.
-_-?
It is like wanting to start saying something controversial and than chickening away from it when I challenge you to take it a bit further.
I was hinting to this Comet that being so rigid and forcing others to fit your mold is not the only way to go thus saying one should also think outside the box. But apparently hint not taken.
Anyway I guess this post shall show you what exactly goes on in my head when I am making conversations with peoples and my reasons for choosing a certain group of people to be with (when choice is possible)
Haha.
It is very strange I admit but I have moods where I just like to be with people who are predictable and stable and I know exactly what to say to them. They will never say anything that would surprise me as they retain neutral ground and hardly ever say any thing controversial.
I can say as many controversial stuff as I like and they would still retain neutral ground or I could just go along with the flow of their conversation and than it is simple.
But I will also be bored at times as I like to talk to people that show me a new way of looking at things and make me feel like I am expanding my universe. My craving for this must come from my long nightly conversations with my father when he was still alive. After he died I have never gotten this back.
I have just discovered this as I type that my key consideration for a future partner would be that he must be able to expose certain things about life to me which I have not seen before, he must be able to challenge me... Most men my age cannot seem to do this. I have a feeling I may marry an older man by maybe 3 - 5 years or so. Perhaps I am thinking too far ahead.
I digress anyway I have another group of friends that crave controversy and complex concepts.
Thus I orbit between the two. To get my fix of controversy and stability.
A comet hit today and threw me off.
This comet is someone who just shatters my universe which was relatively quite tranquil.
And jumbled everything up and makes it look all wrong.
Firstly I do not like people who criticize the way you live when they are no better. I do not like being interrogated and asked repeatedly the same thing after closing off the topic in a rather straight forward manner.
Like the comet commented my distance from place of work and home was rather far. Than asked me if I found it far. Than I said that I have no problems with the distance from my house to the work place.
Topic closed.
Comet forces it open: Everyone complains their work place is far. You have to take a bus to your work place and walk right? How long does it take?
Me: It takes 15 mins to walk from the MRT and I do not need to take a bus.
Comet: Are you sure it is 15 mins? It is further than that.
*proceeds to calculate the time from my house to the MRT*
Comet (triumphantly): It takes 30 mins correct. So it is far.
Me: Yes it is 30 mins but you may think it is far but it is not far to me.
Comet: You take the MRT than you walk there. What route do you take to walk there?
Me: Why you so interested to know how to go to my workplace. You want to visit me at my workplace is it?
Comet: No I don't want to visit your work place.
Me: Than why do you ask me how far is my work place from my house and how to walk there?
Comet: I know how to go to your workplace. Just that your workplace distance is far.
-_-"
You know how to go to my school than must ask me so many questions for what?
She is like insisting I agree that my work place is far based on her judgment of distance. She does not even work where I am working and she does not even stay when I am staying.
There was also another matter which irritated me as well.
Comet: I find teachers are not doing what the textbooks say they should.
Me: Sometimes we should not follow just what textbooks say but think outside the box instead of being so rigid. We have to be flexible.
Comet: We should follow textbooks. Teachers are right to follow textbooks.
Me: But you just said that you found that teachers are not doing what the textbooks say they should?
Comet: Yes but we should not be complacent.
-_-?
It is like wanting to start saying something controversial and than chickening away from it when I challenge you to take it a bit further.
I was hinting to this Comet that being so rigid and forcing others to fit your mold is not the only way to go thus saying one should also think outside the box. But apparently hint not taken.
Anyway I guess this post shall show you what exactly goes on in my head when I am making conversations with peoples and my reasons for choosing a certain group of people to be with (when choice is possible)
Haha.
what we could have been, 6:35 PM.
